Sometimes you've just gotta unplug

Wednesday, May 25, 2005

So I think I'm going to have to unplug from my computer and internet and ipod and camera and cellphone and who knows what else. I'm becoming like Neo in the stupid pod. My muscles are astrophied and I'm really squishy, which is starting to bother me quite a bit.

I have learned that I need to self motivate myself, but honestly I don't have that much motivation. I need to get myself onto a schedule. Maybe I need to give up meat or something because it seriously messes up my body. In the last couple of days I settled into the fact that I'm never going to be a beautiful metrosexual man that flashes the rosen chest and perfectly primmed textured hair. I don't think that's what I was every going for, but...I might have been and well I decided that I was happy beginning a average slightly over weight, functionally athletic, above averagely intelligent guy.

Is that so bad?

I mean I'm not a beast to look at, I mean there are girls that do find me attractive...but being a critical motherfucker I don't find them so. It's a dilemna. But to be completely honest with you, I need to get myself better organized. This flightly nymphy- going about just getting by, isn't working. I need structure.

I need to join a goddamn gym. I learned that I don't motivate myself enough to exercise on my own. I should study at least 1 hour a day on Korean. That I do need and let's see...I should write for at least 30 minutes a day, because I don't have anything substantial enough to write more.

I need to stop obsessing over things. I mean shit last night with Kate you were a bastard. You need to apologize to her. She's going to snap and I think you're going to be the force doing it.

Become yourself and everything else will follow.

Isn't that what the tarot said?

hahahahahahaha

shantie

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